Emotions.

If I thought this last term would be the easiest that I would just have to see the time out, then I was wrong. Emotionally it seems to be as challenging as term one when I was very lonely at times and found the situation at school very difficult. Maybe it is cognitive dissonance but bit I am finding it very difficult to be present at the school truly present and when I went to teach yesterday it was if my body was there but me the teacher had departed.  I got through the day, and had to do more teaching than usual but if felt very odd, and I just crashed out as soon as I got home, so maybe an element of depression too. I just bombed on Monday night with the realisation that my two colleagues would be leaving the country before. Maybe just shows that despite how nice and how much I like all the people I live with and work with these two people who shared with me the process of my recruitment and coming to the this country and who have spoken with me online to share our views, how, even though at times I have had severe disagreement with one of these people which has been very painful, they have been vital in my coping this year.  I am pleased to say discussions with someone who may come next year cheered me up a bit but I am not sure how to get myself back to put my energy into what needs to be done in the next three weeks but I am hoping that my spirits will pick up a bit as there is a lot to be done before I head home.