Despite very very very itchy eyes and feeling very tired have managed a last horse ride up the mountain. Yesterday from the bus  there is a bit where one goes through a mountain pass and the amount of flowers on the hillsides were amazing and I even saw a couple of yurts set up for the summer and I had meant to film it on the way back but the bus was just too crowded on the bus to even see out.   So I thought I might see the same flowers today, but no, so different eco system, but lots more blossom out and got higher up than I can on foot, and it is a lovely day, but by does wearing jeans chafe on the way down and my knees are knackered
now, but at least I did it. Although I like going up the mountain I get a bit scared coming down so we did not go to high up, I feel a bit like life is on  a precipice anyway cos if I do not sign up to come back then what I have some ideas but will have to find work, anyway next week end we will have the end of term conference and it will be goood to discuss policy with the policy team which I in theory lead and just swhow that feels.  Now it seems so normal to be at work that I will not be next Tuesday is a bit hard to get my head round, but I still get quite anxious about going to work sothere however, I think I feel that about most jobs.