Amazing, frustrating and scary

Amazing.

My head is amazing, so are my colleagues. On Saturday we had a day's work. All week she has supervised and at times helped with the planting.  Tomorrow the children have another subodnik and will be doing some planting and I hope to bury more wood. The sports colleague is physically making the nets and putting together backboards for basketball. Then the owner of the Ashu comes up and discusses how to build the kitchen and the volleyball courts and lots of rubble arrives to be laid. In the meantime she is still teaching, we are planning for the end of term conference and still she wants to do a fundraiser before it and yet you would have thought that she would be full to the brim with things to do, but the music teacher has mentioned and suggested to her bringing the radio station to our school.  And she is not like help stop I cannot cope there is too much to do, she is like bring it on.

Now one of the things I was hoping to do when I came here was work on this radio station a bit, but I thought it was over half an hour a way so gave up on the idea especially as the teacher who I knew worked on the station speaks no English. Instead it is just down the road. Frustrating and embarrassing because all these people are working their socks off, then working them off again, yet the one thing I might have been able to do, I gave up on as I thought it was half an hour away.  And when  I try and nip in and spend half an hour printing stuff so that I can get on without their help I get stuck and still have to have one of them help me. I am also under my hours yet feel completely full up with what I have to do before the end of the year so how they do it I do not know. It is also why my recent offer of work here is scary cos they want me to do more work and more hours for no extra pay as far as I can see.  I have been so proud of myself to be back at work in a school teaching ,and thought good I am getting skills back but realise now I should have been building up my strength even more because I really do not think i will be able to manage so many hours.

Some of my students asked me today if I was leaving and said that they did not want me to go, which is very nice of them, they are great kids, but they were also said when I came and replaced their previous teacher.

Anyway I have come back to an evening with food provided and no one to care for my head was up at 6.30 and will work till late tonight providing for her family, while the others will be digging over their land to plant crops. They make them supercharged here.