Is this the sign that it is time to give up.

Another hideous days teaching. I knew today would be challenging cos I am ill and cos I was asked to cover someone at 9. I did not agree to that but did get to work early where it turned out I had to cover another lesson and then had to more or less force my colleague who is in charge of printing to do the work I needed for today's lessons. He wanted to go and tidy up outside instead as it is the tidy up season, so I had to play the heavy with him. I then had to play the heavy with year 0 their teacher is away so they have had a day more or less playing to themselves so I knew coming in and teaching would be a challenge, but when people make rude faces at you for doing your job and turn their backs on you even if they are only 6 I come to the conclusion that if that is how they feel after knowing me thus far then clearly I am not a good enough teacher.  I know the odds are stacked against me, but... The kids even went and got the aforementioned colleague to get him to put the TV back on he was about to lay into the kids for taking it out and found me in class instead as the culprit. He was then about to lay into the kids for their behaviour but I said know forget it for by then I was working with the one child who wanted to study and she did a lovely job and bit by bit the others (most but not all) joined in some of it (the bit he had done the printing for)... but I just feel what is the point in other people's wonderful visions - visions which I would love to see come to fruition, and them wanting me to stay if I cannot even deliver the fundamentals.   Then went on and taught Krushki and sadly they could remember virtually nothing.  So not a great recommendation of my teaching today. Yet the last few days have seemed nice because some of my children can actually converse with me now.  And even me the grown ups using a mix of basic Russian, Kyrgyz and English can have small conversations now.


I am due to go to a meeting in Bishkek on Saturday but the idea of catching the 7 am bus when I am not well and it turns out the flat I usually stay in is not available any more so I cannot rush some where and crash out after so I am not sure I can do any of it any more.

However, as per usual the reality is that my day is not as bad as the many gay people in Africa threatened with death for their sexuality.   And sadly the British Government not always as helpful as it could be when people seek asylum. If you can help sign the following:  https://www.allout.org/en/actions/aderonke-taf